Dan the man

This is a topic I have struggled with most of my life. Growing up I never learned the value of myself, I had many friends most were vastly different than each other probably because I was trying to figure out where I would be the happiest. Now, I can see that true happiness comes from within, but then I would stay in awful friendships/relationships because the fear of being hurt or hurting someone was paralyzing. At 64 years old I know now what I should have known then and it was only in the last 20 or so years that I realized I was the only one responsible for my well being and happiness. And just like that the most amazing people came into my life, no more broken women I felt the need to fix, but would inevitably nearly break me, or the guys who just wanted to hang around smoke dope and drink beer and go nowhere in life. I now live a life I have dreamed of with the very best people in it, they inspire me to be better as I do them.