Dan the man

The biggest failure in my life was my first marriage, that broke me so bad I haven’t been the same since, that was 26 years ago and it still affects my life. My 2 sons are nearly strangers because of the divorce and the way my ex poisoned them, used them to hate me as much as she did. After many years of therapy and counseling, after relocating to save my own life so that I can be around for them, after losing everything I had physically and emotionally I began the slow healing process. Terrifying nightmares, sleepless nights the daily struggle to stay sober, the overwhelming loneliness. These would be my everyday for over 20 years. I do take full responsibility for my life and all the shitty choices I made and stayed alone for about 18 years because I did not want to burden anyone with my life. Then, 8 years ago I met my wife and my life went from a 3 to a 10 almost immediately, everything is better I am not the same person I was and have grown to be the person I feel I was meant to be all along. I still get nightmares, not nearly as often, they’re getting less and less. I learned to be a better person to myself, I’m in full control of my life and emotions and that makes me a better human being.