There was a time in my life maybe thirties to fifties when I could connect with people at a level that even had me thinking “How”. I believed I could have sold just about anything even burial plots. Many people have told me I have a gift of really understanding people even women which I always had an uncanny ability with. I could talk a nun out of her BVDs roll in the hay all night and she would have no regrets. Woman are drawn to me like a moth to the flame. My wife of the past ten years gets the best of me because all her friends connected with me in ways I never believed possible and in my youth I would most likely to them up on it because I have and it’s a shitty thing to do and hurts more people than you realize, but and I’m not making excuses here but the relationships I was in in the past didn’t have the comfort of my marriage now, my wife gives me everything I was looking for she’s the complete package. I had great relationships, but they all had at least one red flag and I would overlook it for the sake of the relationship, the trouble with that is all those red flags add up until you can no longer stay quiet and then that conversation becomes an argument filled with words you never wanted to say, but they flowing out of your mouth faster than your mind can tell you to stop. After that it’s a few months of “trying “ only to fail miserably and both of you want to strangle each other. So after a few relationships like that I stayed single and slept around because it was easy for me, but it also made me look at myself and I realized I was a douche bag big time. When I met my wife I wasn’t looking for anyone and I didn’t just fall head over heels in love with her, those first few months when desire is strong and you’ll overlook anything to get her in the sack it was nothing like that she wanted to more than me but I wanted to wait and see how this goes. This year marks our ten year anniversary and there was never a red flag or puppy love or any of that nonsense it’s been a dream come true for me I love her in ways I can’t describe she showed me the best version of myself and for that I owe her exactly that.